“What’s going on in your mind?”
“I don’t know. I wish I could express it clearly. Clearly, I am bad at it.”
“At least try.”
“I want that intensity. I want that kind of book which I end up reading; those ones which make us laugh and cry with them. Is it that bad that I want someone who would love me with that passion? One who would not give up on me? Who would wait for me, no matter how many years pass by?”
“That’s just a fairy tale. It doesn’t happen in real life. It’s better to be realists then wait for the inevitable heartbreak because of the one that got away. We are humans, we move on. We need somebody and that’s why it is important to not grieve for them. Smile for the happy memories and let the bad ones teach you a lesson.”
“But what if I want to be irrealistic? It would be wrong if I was only expecting from the other and not ready to give all that. I am. I am ready. I would rather have a love where I would give my all to him.
In fact, even you would! You would do anything for that person. You try to become a better person for them; not because they asked but because you want to be the best version of yourself for them. And the thought of losing them makes your heart crawl out and you can’t even imagine the pain of losing them. You would do almost anything to be with them; cross all the borders for them just for those few hours. ”
“Yeah, but in this world, how can you be sure whether the person is the one?”
“Your soul will answer that. Listen to it very carefully.”
– Hema Sanghavi
If last few days are any indication, they would just shout one word, one emotion, that is how grateful I am.
I feel more than happy to be at this moment. Call it God’s grace or just luck, I am blessed with everything I could ever want. Family who support and love, friends who are as good as family, colleagues who are the most helpful and my boss who is understanding.
How can I not love the position I am right now? The hunger to learn more, the opportunity to prove so, home to live in and family who are the best.
Today somehow feels like things are going to change for better. Things will work soon. Hopefully, to the better tomorrow.
At times it’s better to step out of the situations and look through it like a spectator in the crowd.
Sometimes it’s better to be at the shore than be in the depth of ocean.
To to admire the heat from the fire than getting burnt.
But is it living?
Everything is messy. Nothing works. Nothing clicks. Just an awful start.
It’s funny how we all talked about self love and encourage it but at the end of the day, it’s the people you have interacted with makes an impact.
Even if you don’t know the person, they will still have an impact on how your day passes. But in the same way, you will create the impact on someone’s else’s life.
So, be kind. World has a little less of it already.
Tricky thing is this, addictive even. I don’t want to get over it. The more I try to see, the more it speaks, enthralls me into this path of just being there. No judgement and just acceptance.
Its quite interesting to observe and see people react, believe and trust. While observation is intoxicating, what shall I see when the tables are turned?
Would the perception of myself shatter or would it be revolutionising?
We are so quick to notice, bond and judge people but dislike when it’s we are put to the same process.
We each have a good/bad side, what we choose to be is based on our interactions. Don’t assume the person you dislike, is really not a good person
There are instances where you make silly mistakes and be embarrassed about it.
May be it’s about those small instances which makes you more better, wiser.
It’s been three days already since the new year has begun and it hasn’t changed drastically. Still sleeping late, not exercising and eating junk food as always. Yet it still brings hope in me, to be better than I was before, to challenge myself.
It’s this moment which calms my beating, nervous heart *insert a gif of Shifu’s (Kung fu panda) inner peace *
Something tells me that it’s going to be okay!